Thursday, January 25, 2007

I apologize if this blog is a drag to read sometimes. It's easier to notice and talk about the tough, weird, alien things than it is to talk about mundane details, just as it's easy for people on the street to stare at someone out of the ordinary. This is becoming a place for me to show my own dirty laundry, in a way I can't do very well in person. As most of you know, I'm not so good at talking about my serious thoughts. I always stutter or stumble over myself and often I don't really say what I mean. I'll be the first to admit I can't walk and chew gum at the same time when it comes to a lot of conversation -- it's hard for me to think and speak simultaneously. It's much easier for me to write things down, since writing is such a malleable thing; I can delete and reorganize as much as I want until I'm satisfied (or get tired of it, which is what usually happens). When I write, I feel like there is more room for error, more room for revision, and just more room in general. I'll try to be a little more broad with what I post in the future.

But this is a good forum for me to process my thoughts and feelings about being here. It seems like I'm having a hard time adjusting, and things are tough and weird. And they are. But I'm also having a great time here. I love this city, and I love the country. The climate, the people, the culture -- I'm sure I'll be just as annoying when I get back into the states, always talking about how wonderful this or that was, back in Israel. So always keep a little grain of salt around to throw into the mix of what I write here; I'm still sort of finding my feet and making friends with a place I don't quite understand yet. But I know we'll be good friends soon, so stay tuned.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

mmmmm - Since most of the people who read this blog are your friends and family, I imagine that we would care a great deal about your personal thoughts, struggles, and experiences. In many ways, I enjoy your musings more than I would a daily list of "what I did today." That might just be because I am your little sister, and I naturally think that you are awesome. But to look at it a different way, by discussing over-arching patterns rather than blow-by-blow activities you actually seem closer. Distant people discuss activities; close people know enough of what goes on generally to examine the patterns that they form. Thanks for letting us, your avid readers, feel close dispite the geographical distance. We love you! (and so do I!) :-)

keren said...

they say (they=scientists) that different part of your brain are in charge of different tasks.
specifically, i think that speaking and writing are located in opposit sides, as do emotions and analithical thinking.
i think that's why it's easier to talk about some things but easier to write about other things -- maybe your verbal center is too far from your emotional center.

i don't know where the gum chewinc center is in the brain though, that would be an interesting thing to check ;)

i love you too, and i love your blog. it's one of the things i look for every morning, even if i don't comment very often.
chibuk gadol from Chicago.